Just when I was starting to get that flutter again...

I don't know what to do. Should I let you go, or should I come to you? So many things are so obvious. everything points to her. Its always been her. you love her. And that leaves me in the same spot I've always been. Maybe if I was good at crying like her, maybe if I was good at having those girly feelings like her, maybe if I could say the things she says, you would love me for once instead. But... you know I can't do that. And even though I might love you more than anyone else could, my words and my actions will never come out right.

....but I don't want to give up on you.